To Never Listen To Her Good Advice.
I was on PT today, helping where I could, and I came across a girl whom posted about her dear friends death. My Reply Sits After A Handful Of Heartfelt Replies. And I figured it was best suited to be posted here as well.
*hugs*No amount of caring words can help you sort out this very painful and most difficult time you are facing right now, and I'm very sorry for that. You shouldn't push too hard in any direction, you'll worry your self ragged and it will just pile on to the stress of what you are facing now.
Do what feels right, your heart need time to heal.
I know we do not know each other, and this is the first we have spoken, but I ask you to listen to my advice, weather you take action or not, is entirely up to you. i just pass on what worked for me:
Take long bubble baths.
When i say bubbles, i mean indulge! pour half, even all if you'd like, of some bubble gum smelling (or smell of your choice) in to a warm bath. You need to let your present slide off and get lost in the mounds of bubbles. Its your time to get lose your self alittle. spend hours in the tub, and let your imagination run wild. make a bubble castle, and a little bubble town. perhaps a bubble hair do is better for you.
point is, smile. and your biggest worry will be if your bubble castle will with stand bubble Godzilla.
stay in till your toes are prunes.
once out make some tea, warm and sweet smelling, in the largest mug you have.
now its your time to hide away.
take your tea and climb in to bed with a note book, or papers, and something to write and colour with. and something hard to write on. but wait! cozy up and write naked. o nauterle! under the warm and soft blankets.
do have tissues on hand.
now let it all out. you'll be surprised how soothing writing naked is, no joke.
now your not limited to words, draw, paint, it doesn't even have to be readable. hell, scribble in black crayon if your heart tells you to. point is, it will be out, all of it. don't hold back, even if it was about that old lady down the street that takes your news paper, or when you stubbed your toe last week. let. it. all. out.
drink your tea and breath.
if you start to cry, let that out as well.
nap.
take your time to wake up.
and if you feel you need it.
fall right back asleep.
your heart knows best. listen to it.
*hugs* I know my post was long, but i do hope it will help.
it all may seem like silly babble. but its just about realse.
only time will heal all that breaks.
do feel better hun.
-Alice
Planning on moving in with naya, we both should have thought of this along time ago.. But Better Now Then Later. I found a site (ModCloth) And I Plan To Slowly Buy A Wardrobe From Only This Site. Shoes, Dresses, Pants, Tops, even fill my apartment with the the sites decor. I Want To Be Someone New. This doesn't happen often so I know when the wave of change tears me down, and I become so bothered and restless until I so something, I know I've got to do something. I got to see yannic today, after a week of so him being away. It was a good moment to feel nothing but happiness. I missed him so much, and it was hard to let him drive away. I Really Didn't Want To Let Go.. The anti depressant pills the doc gave me has had me in crazy binge depression mode. I'm not upset from the binges. Okay Of Course I Am. But that's not what I mean, It the pills that have had me bed redden for the past 3 days, and I'm feeling so worthless that I just eat and eat and feel like shit. Ugh. I've asked a few others on PT, and it seems that this just my system getting use to the pills and that it shall pass. I do hope so.. I've been told to look up another type of depression and that it sounded more like me. I think this happy pills business is just silly. I was just fine BEFORE the pills. 
