10/22/11

Hello, And Goodbye.

An extended, but not permanent goodbye.

I`ve noticed the long gaps of blog neglect, and it does`t stir me to write.


Ladies are Not Born, They are Made

Through my long search for a custom tea set, I`ve venchured further for any information I can find about victornian era etiquette. I do believe I`ve been born in the wrong era, and that my life would benifit if I studied how to be a lady. Of course this means a wardrobe over hal, and well, *shudders* studying. But in the end, I do see an over all improvement.



I've been attempting to journal, but, as with my blog, I'm failing to stick to anything. I enjoy writing my thoughts, but I feel the urge to rip out pages freshly written. 

It's been about a week since I've seen Yannic, perhaps longer. He is away on a hunting trip, and lacks cell service  (not to menchin I havn't any minutes. I'm planing on baking some cookies, and well tackle him the first chance I get. I've been missing him, a hell of a lot.

He wrote me a love letter the other day, my goodness, I loved it. It was his own sweet corny way, and well, made me miss him more.

Just this post has taken me three, four days, sad I know. I just don't feel the need to write anything down. Like nothing is anything, and it wouldn't make any difference. I think a step back to just go over everything. To sort out whats going on in my head, my heart, and my life. To go through my belongings, to reajust my priorities.

I'll be back soon, a post once and a while, but nothing too frequent. I know the desire will sir, I know it will. But for now, I'll sign off.

Think thin, follow your heart, and well, carry on.
Alice
xoxo

10/11/11

Two Fifteen Sharp

I'm really on the fence about getting more Zoloft. Has it really helped? That's really a question I can't answer.

And I haven't the money to get more.

But, TBH, every time I get a full bottle, and shake out my nightly three, I wonder what would really happen if I took four, five, maybe more. Those thoughts I don't enjoy having.

I don't enjoy them at all.

T.B.H

I Could Drink Your Weight In Tea.
Just Say'n.


Is it "wrong"
I've taken diet pills to prevent an episode of purging?
Yeah, I thought so to.

10/10/11

Penn & Teller: Tell a Lie 1x01 A Head of Hair Can Lift A Mustang (2011) DivX - icefilms.info

Penn & Teller: Tell a Lie 1x01 A Head of Hair Can Lift A Mustang (2011) DivX - icefilms.info:

500 calories or one smoke? Yeah, I'd pick that one as well. I bought a pack the other day, just to get though fasting. I really did get though day one of my fast, got right down to 116.8, yeah you heard me correct. lowest I've been in a year(ish). I've been eating.. alot as of late.. got back up to 119, but this morning I've reached 117.4 so I'm happy about that. I've just gotta keep my intake down, and my smoking on the down low(er) (..as well with my blogging..) Any who.. Ho Hum.

I freaked out, I had em in my hand, right in the check out line, and I panicked. I couldn't buy them, I just couldn't. Down one pack of laxatives, up one pack of smokes.

I've been in contact with Annie and Asia, more so as of late. I've really missed talking to them! I've been able to talk to them about whats going on.

Blah, I've gotta work again today. Happy thanksgiving? sure.

'via Blog this'

10/6/11

"Never Tell Shmit..

But I've always loved bubbles.."

I've purged, twice. In the staff washroom. I'm at 118.6, and (fingers crossed) after todays fast, I'll be lower.

Thats all.

10/5/11

Oh Mondays (118.2)

wait.. its just Tuesday. well then.

this whole BLOGGING thing has become a chore, well not completely, but I'm finding myself less willing to post about my boring life. Well the only new news I really have is about Kami, we took him to the vet, shaved the area and well turns out his gash was a tad larger then we thought.. but we have med's for him now, and it'll take about 2-3 weeks for it to fully heal. Other then that, I got burned at work, hot water is hot btw. but I'm okay. The vegan thing is going great, a few slips now and then, but thats only cause I'm under 600 each day. so its too be expected. Once I get paid Friday, I'll be shopping for real foods! And a few vegan treats as well, so if I slip I'll be still vegan! My arms are killing me though.. more then ever.. so is my jaw now that I think about it.. ho hum. So as the title says, I'm at 118.2 as of this morning. I'm worried about tomorrows weigh in though.. cause I've had two granola bars on top of the rice dish I had at lunch.. so no more for me!

----------------------Wednesday (118.5)----------------------

I'm oh so very sleepy..