Pehaps. Only Perhaps.

I'm so confused. At a loss at what to do.

I wanna curl in a ball. Die perhaps.

Everything Hurts.
And It feels Deep Blue Is On The Verge Of Taking Over Once Again.


I want that book. The one in the book store. The one about the bluimic.
I want to know how it ends.

I want to have the guts to talk to asia about her post. Her writing.
Her lies.
Her very believeable lies.

Has the pushing away started agian?
I feel it. I dont want it.

My dreams screamed that i was a failure to him.
They said i'd never live up to everything he asks of me.
Everything that he expects.

I believe that. I can barly live up to my damn expectations.
How will i ever live up to those of another.