I'm still tapering down and off of my meds, and I can slowly see my old habits and ways of acting coming back. I don't like how I use to be. I don't like it one bit, and I really don't want to go through that all again. But here it is, and Jason is being subject to it, "it" as in, crazy little me.
Maybe I'm better off on meds..?
Maybe I'm better off dead.
I'm doing better sure, but better is just coasting along. I'm still avoiding calling up BCIT and I'm still with out my graduation. I'm wasting my life. It's not.. I'm not.. worth taking up space.
I've started cutting again.
Little crazy Alice, she needs to feel alive.
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