Maybe Its the Alcohol..

Maybe its the lack of sleep.


But I Think These Feeling Are Wrong..
Am I Even Allowed To Have Them..


I was spose to find a girl..
I want a girl.. I want her soft skin against mine..
But your not that.. Its not a bad thing..
But you've brought out the worst in me.

I purged. I'll say it again. I purged after however many months with out it.
I want it, thin-ness, It's what I'm craving..

No, thats a lie. I want the control.. Because thats what I lack right now.

Your so far away, I want you to understand..

I'm broken sure, but I'm healing see?

No its not on the surface.. but its there.. I'm trying hard but its not good enough.

Then again.. why has it ever been?