W/ Lime?

Hamlet Fever? Noting I Can't Handel!
Thanks to my lovely Yannic, and his idea to simply CALL the school.
I wouldn't be shipping off my Hamlet book, and waiting on Death Of A Salesman.

Yes, I've upgraded a few centuries, and I WILL GRADUATE.
On the down side however, I'll have to wait till October to have my final English exam.
(since its a provincial exam, there is only two dates, one from the start of school (October) and one at the end (June) So either I finish the course in twenty days, or I wait till October!)

But really, I slept soundly last night. The stress of hamlet is fading, I took my poetry test today, and rearrange my room. I'm getting it together. (Now only if my diet would follow suit!)

I'm off to write my pen pals (Which I get the feeling they don't care to mail me any more..)
(but Really I See My Self Fighting With Sims Till It Lets Me Play!)

I've got a long week/end ahead of me;
work tomorrow and more cleaning I think! And picking up more Zoloft.
Then camping this weekend (I hope its just me and yannic..)
Saturday is the clothing swap, and Sunday is work again?
Goodness.. On the seventh I start swimming lessons!

Well, Better Get Writing!


Think Thin
XOXO

SunBeam

I find there is alot of irony in my little white scale. 

The on hiding under towels in the bathroom. 

Its got the product name, "SunBeam"

Makes you think of a little road of light allowing you to cross that valley of fear.

See the irony?

To me, the silly little white scale is the valley of fear;

 its blood red digital display, the beasts eyes that stare me down.

The sun beam? The "unknown" of not knowing. 

That allows me to be naive of the valley until I step foot on its white door mat.

Movie Night

Thanks To Block-Buster, And There Faults, I'm now the owner of three more movies and LFD2!

I'm laying about, nomming (more then I should) and watching one of my new movies, Girl, Interrupted. I've only seen this once or twice, but it's been one I've been looking forward to owning. This particular film is based on writer Susanna Kaysen's account of her 18-month stay at a mental hospital in the 1960s.

Its nothing fancy, but the type of movie that a line or two simply sticks with you, that rings true, and induces self reflection. That line for me is:

Susanna: "How am I supposed to recover when I don't even understand my disease?"

Take Two.

Just got my silly laptop back, and well I must say, it was spit shined and brand new!

I know its been a long while, far far too long of a while, but I was well, I'll get into that.

After I update here I really should head over to pt and lay it all out for the girls too, I know I shouldn't have left em hanging, I've really grown a bond with the first group, and was growing that bond with the newbies as well, and just up and runn'n isn't all too nice. Not that it was all my idea mind you. Ah blah, I know your just waiting for me to use the "My life is a mess" line, like in every post. This time, not so much.

I've started Zoloft, and I really see an improvement. I'm still way behind in my Hamlet stuff, but its all thats left before I'm done. Done, then ART SCHOOL! Hehe, I can't wait.
But of course before that..
Hamlet..*shudders*

(If anyone has Hamlet knowledge oh please message me.. I NEED HELP!..)

Out side of that, I'm starting swimming lessons soon. Plan is to go through the stroke class and then pick it up at my own speed. I haven't ran, or did any other exercises, for about two month.. gah.. I know! Fat is just creeping up on me.. BUT swimming, right.

Well, I've gotta finish setting up my laptop, I'll be in to update later.

thin thoughts lovelies.
xoxo

I'm writing you a ---

And here is your verse.


I'm really being left behind. The last one on everyones mind. The girls are in van right now, and Yannic is off skiing. And don't get me wrong, I'm in no way erked that he is off having fun, or that the girls are enjoying the city. I'm just a little hurt im the last to know of anything. I wanted to see the girls before they headed out and not one has messaged me.. I just feel I'm really last weeks news to them.. I miss my friends, I still concider em friends, but I guess they don't see me in quite the same light. Facebook friends now? I guess so..

I'm writing em letters right now, I wanna bike down to the station And surprise them. I really miss em all, so much.. As mean as it sounds, i hope they feel a little bad for forgetting about me.. Cause it really hurts me that I'm not even shrugged off, I'm just forgotten.. An it's not fun.. I really thought I was close with them.. I really did..

I've been binging the last few days. From loneliness, anger, sadness.. Ive had a shit week and my braces have just made it worse. My mouth just plain hurts! So I've been living off ice-cream. I know. Ugh. Been maintaining at 126 ish. And well it pisses me off. I stopped running and working out. But will be starting up swimming with my next cheque, thanks to dantees advice. And well, I dunno. I'm a mess.

Got a new wardorbe yesterday. Less low cut, more tshirts and tanks. Like Hurley roxy and all that style. Got a bathing suit and self tanner. (and yes.. My hands are orange..) blah.


Thinkthin XoXo

Is it

Too much to ask?




...I just wanna be skinny...


I just wanna feel/be small...



Where are my bones?

And she,

She, is in love.

Of course ive explained this before, Yannic, and how much he means to me, but I dunno,
Everything that's going On , I want to tell him, I want to make sure he under stands, that IRS hard, so damn hard, I miss being normel.

Just stroke the furry wall?

Tweedel dee

Tweedel dumb.

I just want to feel pretty.