I Have Been, Gone.

On the: To buy list..

I have been away, been too long in my own mind. Thoughts will slosh together once and a while, a sea dark green, hazel, like my eyes. 

Its been quite a while since my "So Long" post, but I feel I'm slipping again, and my thoughts rush to be recorded. I've been flipping the internet pages of blogs I follow, all their words reaching out and pulling my hair, my head closer to the screen. Okay, that's what it feels like at least. 

I'm not too sure what I'm up to as of late in the weight category, I've got my time of the month coming soon, and have been eating out more nights then not. Regardless of the weeks before, I've been maintaining around 119 ish, ( high of 122, low of 117. ) So, as uncomfortable as I am, I know its better then where I was some time back. Rather, this time two years ago, even last year this time. Slow and steady I guess.

Took some E-Lax, and Durirex last night, haven't experienced a bowl movement in a while. Come to think of it, at times, I won't have one for all most a week. I think my on and off smoking has something to do with that of course. While on the subject, I bought another pack yesterday. The little insert advert had the words, highlighted in yellow, You Can Stop Smoking Without Gaining Weight! Stopped to catch my breath mid-crosswalk. "No more in 2012" is the mantra of course.

Then again, that could be the mantra for a lot of things I've been up to. I've been good in that touchy area of purging for a short bit. Eating went smooth for a week, with a meal planner Yannic had helped me with. Short lived of course. But very helpful when it was around. Perhaps another go in a while? Then again, nothing food plan related really sticks of course. Other then the 1940's grape fruit diet ;)

I'll be off to the library soon, catch a bus, take a bike, leave the house. 

After the Lax stop turning me sideways of course.