Where Is My BonBon?

I'm not sure if I miss her, or just the contact from another girl. 

I see them walking, some smile my way, some hold another girls hand. 

I wish so badly to have that, to hold some girls soft hand in mine, to pull her close, and kiss her neck.

Maybe I should just stop thinking about it.

Maybe I'm wrong for wanting this.

Maybe I should just forget this.

But Maybe, Just Maybe, I Need My BonBon.

Worse fears.. Not so bad.

All of those fears that rendered me helpless, the ones that put up walls and tore at my sanity .. 

They have come, and past. 

And guess what, the world is still spinning, and hasn't exploded.

*deep breath in* Im breathing in

*breathing out*  Im breathing out

And I guess thats really all I can do.

But to be honest, thats just fine with me.