There has been a spark

I've started writing again.. 

It's been a year or so with out poetry. 

Here is the first breath of life.

Enjoy.

Im not sure what to write 

But I know that my soul wants to speak

I feel it. Its restless 

Turning and aching and craving 

Release

It's been awoken, after sleeping for so long

The pen shakes my fist clenches and face screws up in frustration 

I close my eyes.. And see words like a ticker flashing past too quick to register

My soul is restless

Turning and aching and craving 

Release

It's been awoken, after sleeping for so long

One long.. Deep.. breath.. In. 

My hands come to my chest 

Another.. breath.. 

Release

Ive got a story. These pages have been aching for ink, I've got a story and I'm ready, to give it life. 

Turning and aching and craving 

Release

This adventure has been awoken, after my eyes have been close for far too long.

Im not sure what to wrte, 

But this seem like a good way to start. 

To be honset..

Im feeling a little more then a little lost.

Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself

Where am I going? What am I doing?

Why am I so lonely.. 

Loneliness has to be the most painful emotion.. Next to depression.

Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself

Maybe its all tied together, and I'm only making it worse by being selfish and valuing your friendship over everything else. 

But selfish or not.. I know I miss you..

If I can't keep myself together I'm not sure anyone can.. Sadly you and your kindness can't fix me. 

Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself..Ihatemyself

I'm nothing more then poison.. It's all happen before, and it'll only hurt so much more this time 'round because your the innocent by stander, I wasn't ment to find your kindness.

Save yourself from me while you can..

I'm so sorry.. I love you.

86 hours away via train..

But that's just for now

New friends, just when I was certain new   friends would be nothing but bad news.. I've gone and made a handful more <3

Joining the irc has honestly not only brought me back to drawing, and art.. but has sparked my passion for it, making me push my boundaries and see how much I can improve. Which is a mind frame I never thought I would find again.

Sure I'm the new random person that hasn't been around very long.. But I still feel like I've made friends, and in a way finding myself aswell. 

It all might seem silly, but for a few people scattered all over the globe to be able to drag a lonely girl out of depression and back to her art, is really something amazing.

This really wouldn't be possible with out Twitchy.. He was the reason I came back to the irc the first few times, and I can't thank him enough. 

Little Bad Boy

Thats what your acting like

But I really don't buy, that your that kinda guy

Serenade me, once more. Let me feel those butterflies again

Hot chocolate and video games, 

Soft paint covered hands

Time Lord seeking Companion for adventures

 & running away from badguys

• Re: Companion for adventures seeking a tardis!‏

  
  
  I know it's risky, and I'm not even sure why I did it, but I looked on Craigslist. And I found someone. She is married and not looking for commitment, just cuddles and adventures! And is nerdy and cute. It's only been an email back and forth thus far, but it's promising. 
  
  
  And it's just a fluke I went to look. 
  
  
  Gosh I hope it works out.. 
  
  

Im lonely..

Bonbon? Your Lyra is here..

Marceline..? Im lonely.. 

So Its 1 AM.

And I'm home drunk.

I should be at her house.. cuddled close and warm. But I'm here, drinking, sad, and mad.. I dunno.. So I have any reason to be mad? Sure I guess.. But I'm tore, cause I really wanted this, we had a great setup and everything was worked out.. but she doesn't wanna see me. And before its over.

I'm sad.

Will I meet my BonBon?

Hello There..

Its been a while, too long in fact, since I've felt your soft skin pressed against mine..

Its been a while, a few months or so since we spoke, the last time being when I was avoiding you.. I feel bad about that now.. but you had a girl friend, I didn't want to be in the way of that. I wanted you to find happiness and love, the latter being something I knew I couldn't give you. But you're away right now, all the way in Montreal, your operation went smoothly and your on your way to recovery. 

You sent me a message yesterday, and a few short hours later we became "cuddle buddies"

I'll finally have my first experiences with a girl.. I'm so nervous, yet so excited..

I know we have done it before, but it's different this time round.. it will be your first time aswell..
With a girl, finally completely as a girl. 

Are you nervous too?