Happy As Can Be,

Like A Bug In A Rug, And A Fat Kid With Cake!

And It Seems Everything Is Just How I Left It.

I'm finding my real friends. I'm gathering my bearings and starting anew.

I'm Liking This.

Home Away From Home.

Maybe One Away From Reality.
I Lost It All.
Gained It All Back.
I Cant Breath.
I'm Terrified.
I just need to clam myself.
Need
Control.

Maybe Some Mental Health To.
Ugh.

That'll Do Pig.

Oh How I Miss The Normality Of Human Contact. Fulled By Coffee And Prossced Chicken, Cause Thats How I Roll.

This is how a sunday should be. Problem free. Care free. Childish.
Filled with boredum and laughter.
With friendship.
And well.. I missed it.
All of it.

May Have Stuffed My Face.

But It'll Be Okay.
Nothing Seems Like It Can Hurt Me Right Now.
 I Think I'll Sleep Well Tonight.

I miss the carefree ignorance that comes with childhood.
Will I ever regain that?

One More Time.

Just Explain It, One More Time. Use Small Words.

Ever try to explain the skewed views of the thought proses behind a person with an eating disorder?

I have.

Its a fucken party.

Past, Never Forgotten.

It Seems I Can Never Let The Past Go.

So so real.

If i could go back, i would. I'd be in that moment once more. When all we did was fight, and take it all back. I'd tell him i'm sorry. Tell him i wanted him. It was i that pushed him, right over the edge. And no amount of anything can bring him back. Oh how i wish so badly it could. I need to see his smile. Hear his laugh. And know i could bring him sunshine on the darkest day. I really was his last hope. And i fucked up. I wish to see him one last time. Tell him everything. Beg him for forgivness. And let him know i still think about him. I still see his smile. He is in my dreams now and then. I cant listen to our song with out crying. And i just wish i could bring him back. Wish he could see how much he is missed.

L.H., Beast.

My best friend. 

My Love.

I Need You.
Now More Then Ever.

Take Me Were You Have Gone. You Promised To Come Steal Me Away One Day. I beg of you.. keep your promise.

R.I.P L.H.

Alison Krauss - When You Say Nothing At All

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me

There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall

You say it best

Tears Tears ..

I Was Beauty, And You, Beast.

I Knew You Like No Other.

Then You Were Torn From Me.

Heart No Longer Beating.

A Day Never Goes By,

That I'll Let Your Memory Fade.

L. H. My Best Friend.
You Knew Me Like No Other.

ToMeYourEverything

"In An Empty Alley Way, He Sings Softly To Me.
My Heart Beings To Race."